Missing You

Hi My Love,

I’m just sitting here getting lots of work done and just made a iced coffee to help (the coffee here sucks and I need one from my baby stat! Can you make me one when I’m back?)

but I’m of course thinking of you. It’s nice and warm in this house, you’d love it lol. I even have on a hoodie and am somehow not sweating or hot but just cozy. I know you’re at work, knocking it out of the park but I wish I was just “down the street” from you. Feels like my kisses are taking a million minutes to get to you from here in Utah but I know they will find their way.

I love you, and I just wanted to take a moment to thank you for loving me how you do. Thank you for your support in my career. We both are people who work hard for what we want in life and our careers are important to us, and I’ve wondered if I would be “allowed” by the universe to have both or have it all.

Love and my career. But turns out I can.

So I am grateful to have a partner who encourages me and supports me, it feels so good baby it really does. I know how lucky I am to be the person you are choosing to give your love to. I have never taken you or your love for granted, EVER, I promise.

Your love is just so fucking good. I’ll never be able to put it into words, I’ll never be able to get you a gift that expresses how beautiful it is, I’ll never be able to hug you tight enough to show you how it feels, but I’ll keep trying every day to figure out a way to let you know.

I hope you wake up every day knowing that I love you. I hope you wake up every day knowing that I support you. I hope you wake up every day knowing that even though I will never fully understand all that you do I know that you’re the best at it. I hope you wake up every day knowing that I understand your career may physically take you away from me from time to time but that I’ll never hold that against you. I hope you wake up every day knowing that you have both too — love and career.

I just want you to know that I know it’s been difficult with me being away and while yes I see your support, I can also see that it’s a bit tough on you too. I never want you to feel like I don’t see you my darling because I do.

I also want to thank you because I see what you’re doing with verbalizing how you see me physically, I hope it doesn’t feel too odd to do, or that you don’t think I am asking too much but you verbalizing that along with all the other things that you do is really lovely. I know it’s weird for me to thank you for that and I don’t want it to feel like I’m patting you on the head or anything, I am genuinely just saying thank you for fulfilling that need.

Sorry, I’m getting a little nervous at saying that but wanted to say it for a minute but didn’t want to make it awkward but guess what I PROBABLY DID ANYWAY LOL.

So thank you baby. Thank you for being the sweet supportive partner even if at moments it makes you sad that I’m not there. Your patience has always been a beautiful thing in our relationship. I never want to exhaust it and I’m so grateful for it. Thank you for your kindness and sweetness, for your encouragement and love, your reassurance and gentility.

In just a few days you’ll be back in my arms, right where you’re supposed to be <3